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bigby and snow page 1
bigby and snow page 2
bigby and snow page 3

now these two are bigby or big bad wolf and snow white. these are the same characters in the fairy tales, and these pages come from the vertigo comic series Fables. i just wanted to share those few pages because it was just too much of a coincidence that i read it again today and i have stopped smoking.

so dulling the senses thing. i felt really stupid when i read those pages because i knew it was true. i did smoke a lot of times before just to get away, to detach, to be indifferent to what is there at the time. sometimes on purpose and sometimes not. you can force all the reasons you smoke to just needing to dull your senses. thinking along that, it seems yosi is not that far away from drugs isn’t it?

so with that, i had a funny way of looking at people i see who were smoking at the time.

the college girl all alone at starbuck’s smoking by herself, head down as if she was looking at the table..

the middle-aged blue collar worker looking straight at the oncoming traffic, waiting for his ride, without a blink..

the kid who was too young to smoke, savoring every puff and strutting like he just made it..

two friends sitting on a ledge, laughing with their stories after lighting the just-bought yosi..

the guy with his own kaha and his own silver lighter and puts the yosi out even if it is still half-long..

i know i’m looking way too much into it. i’m sure everyone is not trying to forget or numb something about themselves all the time with smoking. but if they were unaware of it as i am.. it becomes really interesting.

and, we can’t really ignore all of it. the more we try to dull ourselves the more it pokes us. it’s the sharpest icepick in the world. so all of it is just trying to escape it, and if i am to be immune to the dependency on yosi i would have to learn to stop my urges to escape the i-dont-need-this stuff. i guess it sounds simpler now, probably because my hearing is not that dull anymore.

hey. i guess fairy tale characters can still teach you some lessons in life.