Whats the story morning glory…

so why after more than 10 years of smoking should i quit now and do it in such an artsy-fartsy manner?

it was early morning of july 29th. the night before i went to joh’s house to celebrate her bday with a few of our friends. we ate pizza, lasagna, fried chicken, ice cream, barbeque, baked potates, coke and a lot more. basically a kiddie party menu. went home and slept at around 5am, my usual sleeping time back then. i woke up to a really annoying, painful and unexplainable pain in the middle of my chest. now i didn’t think at first that it was a heart attack because the rest of my body was functioning properly. i just went back to bed and tried to lie down in a more comfortable position. as you’ve probably guessed that didn’t work at all. a lot of things came into my mind as to how i got that fucking pain in my chest, high BP, heartburn, fatigue and stress, a can of fruit cocktail that my mom dropped on my chest from the cupboards above my bed (yes i have cupboards above my bed, attached to ceiling that stores canned goods and other groceries). anyway, i just thought the cause of the pain was not the important thing at that time. i was sleepy, i was in pain, i was tired and i was hungry. i didn’t want to eat, i wanted to sleep. i drank a few gulps of water then tried my dad’s bed, my sister’s bed, the bamboo sofa and the living room floor. nothing worked, the longer i lay down the more painful it gets. it was like my chest had mercury in it and if i lie down the mercury spreads all over my chest. that gave me the idea that an upright position would be better, so i sat in front my computer table and slept! wasn’t really a big deal, used to do that all the time in college and still do. amazingly that worked, i woke up at 2pm, spit dribbling down the sides of my mouth, numb legs and arms, big red spot on my forehead but no more chest pain. then i thought of why.

later that night i asked my friend ivan to ask his sister who was a nurse. it was basically heartburn and lack of rest. she said it was because of diet, sleeping habits and smoking. the thing is i’m not really that dumb to not guess that those three were the real causes, but i have way better diet than before and more regular sleeping habits. the smoking was a different subject because i knew that it was getting worse. so right there and then i decided to really quit it.