quitters are losers

how bad of a smoker am i? really bad. the peak of my smoking habits is when i could smoke half a pack in one day. that might not be as bad as really addicted smokers but still pretty bad if you think about it. especially if you make time to do it. imagine taking advantage of small breaks in your schedule like say a few minutes between your classes, or the short time brought about waiting for the results of the new code testing. imagine every 2 to 3 minutes that appears you instantly think yosi muna saglit. idle time waiting for the bus or jeep to come is a perfect oppurtunity. don’t forget the inuman sessions and coffee shop kwentuhans. that was how crazy it was back then, when it was gooooood. oh yeah, i loved smoking, i probably still do.

there were a lot of oppurtunities to completely stop smoking for me before. i think i’ve already tried everything, from betting against friends that i can stop for a specific period of time, or promising a girl you like that you would for her sake, or briefly believing the advise of friends that the scary diseases and illnesses and abnormalities they see on tv and read on the internet is what exactly will happen to me all at the same time or even the dumbest fact that you just forgot about it. yeah, truthfully there was a period from 1998 to 1999 that i did not smoke one stick, bought one stick and even thought of one stick. it was so absurd i cannot recall why and how i was able to do that. i assumed that the fact that i could not remember is due to a lot of other things that kept me pre-occupied enough to not think of one stick of yosi at all. fascinating isn’t it? and it is that fact that i’m basing this thing i’m about to do..