it’s all part of the plan…

so its september of 2008, this is month one. meaning the first month of the rest. if i could get through this month without smoking one stick without any outside influence or incentive then i know i’ll be okay

this was supposed to start last august but since i’m a weak, helpless, no-good wuss i immediately succumbed to the temptations by the 2nd day of the month. it was at angeles, pampanga. i was waiting, too long and had nothing to do but smoke. way to go boyo. so the original month one was already destroyed. on the other hand, the urge to quit at that time was getting strong enough that some days passed where i was able to resist smoking. not bad for a first step. so my last smoke was on august 31, 3:30 pm on a sunday, fittingly enough it was a marlboro red from a takatak vendor

so how do i do this? simply quit smoking, no exceptions. not even during inuman, mahjong sessions, coffee sessions, not even if its too cold my nose would have icicles hanging from it. nada, nyet, nil.

one way i thought of to help keep track of my progress and at the same time help me get past the urges was to make this site, make a fool of myself, let other people make a fool of myself and basically find other funny things about what i’m doing or rather what i’m not doing. i’m forgetting how to smoke by distracting myself with things related to smoking. i’ll try to make it into a kind of a blog thing where each day has something juicy event that is related to smoking but honestly don’t expect anything. i’ll eventually be able to think of something to show.

also, each day that passes that i don’t smoke i would change to color of the date into red. if everything works i should have a very red month of september at the top.

i know i cannot prevent others from tempting or encouraging me to light a cigarette again so they are basically part of the trials or whatever. i hope none of you guys do because you’d really be assholes if you did, help me out here willya?

lastly i know i cannot prove to you guys if i’m honest or whatever. so i just hope anyone reading this would keep the faith, i really need to do this right now while its not too late.