September 2008
24 posts
day thirty. month one.
maraming salamat kay jec at pumayag siyang i-host nung una itong kalokohang ito. haha! ayus pre.
maraming salamat din kay lyn at sa excitement nya ayusin ito na feeling ko tuloy di ako pumapasa sa standards nya hahaha! biro lang. pasensya na lyn kung sinira ko yung unang design mo. di ko talaga feel eh. peace.
maraming salamat sa mga nagbasa at nag-reply at nag-suggest dito sa site. pati na rin...
day twenty-nine
tomorrow will be the last time i write anything about my former habit and probably would just be acknowledgements to others. because all this doesn’t really end tomorrow, you can get what you could read on this site straight from me. honestly there’s nothing much left to say about it.
i know i’m going to miss this, it has been part of me for the past 10 years after all. nothing...
day twenty-eight
influences were a big part of this habit. i knew too many people who smoke. i’m not putting blame on them but i do admit it made smoking look normal. i remember the time when cigarettes did not have the government warning, and when that came out i actually doubted it would work. but if the people close to me made smoking seem normal and acceptable, there are others who made it cool.
now...
day twenty-five
while i was browsing through my pc folders, i took a look at the baby pictures of my niece. my cousin puts copies all their pictures to my laptop whenever i go home to bataan. then i saw this..
let me make it clear that i had nothing to do with this. although that yosi most likely came from my own kaha. i recognized the familiar wrinkles on it since i keep my yosi in my pockets. yes my cousin...
day twenty-four
what i’m about to share is something that i have to tell carefully, because it might otherwise get back at me.
way back in 2004, valentine’s day. we were going to bicutan, the aguilar mansion, and we decided to meet at a certain train station. when i got off the train, i saw ced, martin and isko were already there. we were still waiting for someone else then, probably jerry, and as i...
day twenty-three
average day.
mornings - wake up around 9 to 10. check time and try to remember day of the week. try to remember what to do for that day. cook breakfast, usually corned beef and scrambled eggs. yosi afterwards with a glass of iced tea. sit on the pc and check stuff on the net. about 15-30 mins after the first stick, i start to feel number 2. after that i go back to the pc then yosi eventually.
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day twenty-two
wow this day was really trying to get me. new england lost. it was uncomfortably hot at the office. it was uncomfortably hot driving home and i wanted to let the windows down. my laptop was bogging down because of so many things i had to finish for the night and our router was stalling at the wrong time. if i was a sim, my comfort level was already 0.
all those moments that i just said would...
day twenty-one
21 days straight of not smoking makes it officially a habit. :)
this is me having fun.. :)
veinte días
click on the links to read something interesting..
bigby and snow page 1 bigby and snow page 2 bigby and snow page 3
now these two are bigby or big bad wolf and snow white. these are the same characters in the fairy tales, and these pages come from the vertigo comic series Fables. i just wanted to share those few pages because it was just too much of a coincidence that i read it again today and...
day eighteen
so i’ve been blabbing all this time that quitting was easy, i’m a natural-born quitter, i do not need yosi rather yosi needs me, yosi is so five years ago, etcetera yadda yadda yadda. i’m sure most of you would say after this month i’d be back on it. some of my friends actually said that i’ve done this before nothing new same old same old. if i need to be specific let...
day sixteen
so what do you do with traffic in makati? you smoke! early in the morning at 8am. notice the patented yosi-in-left-hand-while-driving figure (see image above).
remember to open your windows
make sure you hold the stick tightly between your fingers so you won’t accidentally drop it.. or it might be too windy and you don’t want your yosi to be caught in it.. or some desperate person...
day fifteen
we’re halfway there, wooooaaaah! livin’ on a prayeeeeeeeeer..
15 days into it. i could count the days where i was really tempted to smoke and it wouldn’t even bother me. i hope this isn’t me being overconfident or anything, its not what i expected. i’ve overcome most of the temptations but i would have never guessed how easy i would resist yosi during “my long...
day twelve
so when you can’t, you can’t.. or you can. what he said.
day eleven
had dinner with map and jo tonight, with a cup of coffee after. i usually smoke with map during that, it really is easier to not think of smoking while you are with other people. this is getting far too easy for me, i bet the most trying times would not even occur during month one. anyway, so i already overcame idle times, mahjong sessions, coffee sessions and cold weather treatments. not bad, not...
day ten
a little wisdom from marct. sheesh. didn’t really think of the picture that way at all.
so since we are in the mood for sharing little bits of information here are some more useless ones:
i use this somewhat hand-sign to ask someone for yosi. i point my index finger on the middle of my lips, mouth closed. if you know the hand-sign dr.evil makes with the pinky, almost similar but...
day nine
just discovered these cigarette packs here in the house. it was on the dividers where mother’s philip morris packs are usually found. this was probably some gift. anyway, the name on the pack is vogue and is flavored as menthe, now i know the french word for mint. also some more french lines on the other side..
A travers les feuilles Mille rayons de soleil Fraicheur de la brise.. which...
day eight
bad day. nothing smoking-related today, i’m just too sad coz we just lost tom brady for the whole season. its a big blow but we still have to play. go patriots!!
day seven
the past few days i’ve been trying to recall that span of time where i stopped smoking the longest. i remember when i entered college, i wasn’t smoking at all. maybe i was too high on the fact that i was a freshman and a lot of things were uncertain and i just completely forgot about smoking, i guess. i wasn’t smoking as heavy as i did back then but still was already kind of a...
day six
haha! i just jogged 2 rounds at the academic oval this morning, 1 non-stop and a slower, walking round . and it was.. boring. i could do that even if i was smoking. i felt the edges of my lungs awaken from hibernation. sheesh i was really wheezing and i hate that feeling. anyway, i will be forrest gump!
another major test for me later. mahjong session and bday celebration of budi, 8:30 PM, tutor+...
day four
a year ago, one of my friends dared me to go one month without smoking. free dinner at friday’s was on the line. the date was september 15, 2007 at past 12. we were at nipa hut in pasig i think, i don’t know where exactly. i was with brader micoi, ivan, james and melgar and we were having a couple of bottles of beer. of course i was the only one smoking among them so it got kinda...
day three
two of my friends convinced me to use blogging software for this page. i gave in yesterday. lyn is really into making this page more than i do. hahaha! anyway so i guess there will be guestbooks or comments and nice update posts and lots of usual blog stuff.
anyway today was a real test. our supposedly whole-day training was done before lunch and we had to burn five hours. you might have heard...
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day two
my heritage.. kinda
first of all, i did not include the names of the spouses of mother and father’s siblings nor are they included in my precise calculations. i just prefer it to be so. don’t make a big deal out of it. second, the red cigarette thingie means that person is a smoker or was a smoker. if i was in doubt whether a relative was a smoker, i assumed they...
August 2008
5 posts
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day one
day one. month one. no one. no one, nooo oooooone, can get in the way of what i feel.. nevermind
Whats the story morning glory...
so why after more than 10 years of smoking should i quit now and do it in such an artsy-fartsy manner?
it was early morning of july 29th. the night before i went to joh’s house to celebrate her bday with a few of our friends. we ate pizza, lasagna, fried chicken, ice cream, barbeque, baked potates, coke and a lot more. basically a kiddie party menu. went home and slept at around 5am, my...
it's all part of the plan...
so its september of 2008, this is month one. meaning the first month of the rest. if i could get through this month without smoking one stick without any outside influence or incentive then i know i’ll be okay
this was supposed to start last august but since i’m a weak, helpless, no-good wuss i immediately succumbed to the temptations by the 2nd day of the month. it was at angeles,...
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some fun (annoying) facts
i was one of the first smokers from my batch in UPIS. i knew of a few other guys that i saw with my own eyes that smoked but they didn’t really knew i did also. there was a time that we had a film showing at the AS in UP diliman and i was so early i decided to smoke on the 3rd floor. yeah, i didn’t know that you cannot smoke inside AS and inside an empty classroom at that. one of my...
quitters are losers
how bad of a smoker am i? really bad. the peak of my smoking habits is when i could smoke half a pack in one day. that might not be as bad as really addicted smokers but still pretty bad if you think about it. especially if you make time to do it. imagine taking advantage of small breaks in your schedule like say a few minutes between your classes, or the short time brought about waiting for the...
the other day-1
i learned how to smoke at the age of 17. it was during Christmas vacation in 1997, i was with my two elder cousins, nathan and teresa, who taught me how to smoke my first yosi. it was marlboro reds from a takatak vendor. the interesting thing is that teresa taught me like it was a technique or something that you have to remember, which is annoyingly funny but true. basically there are three...